Category Archives: Joy

Mothering in the Dark

Ella and Caleb, My sweet ones. I knew all summer I’d write this letter. But now that it’s here, now that it’s time to write, I hesitate. Fear creeps in and I wonder what you’ll think of me. Because depression … Continue reading

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I’m Already Proud of You

Oh, my sweet girl. My young, beautiful ballerina. This week I’ll watch you walk into the studio for hours and hours of rehearsal for your part in next week’s performance of Coppélia. After the final curtain falls, and your muscles … Continue reading

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Whispers and the Still, Small Voice

I know I’ve been quiet lately—here in this space. There’s no singular reason, but rather it’s been the spinning plates or the different hats or whatever metaphor you want to give to the busy-ness of a teacher-mom running fast. While … Continue reading

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Slipping and Sliding and Finding a Rhythm

Sometimes I go slipping and sliding over the rhythm of a day, a week—never finding a cadence, a beat. Recently my Court Jester has been all about the basketball. He carries it through the house. Bounce. Bounce. Bouncing. The muffled … Continue reading

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Searching for Christmas

A quick glance over my last several posts may look like I’m in a funk. A dip. A low. That may be true, but I think it’s more. I think it reveals a search. A search for Christmas. A search … Continue reading

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Being Real is Always Beautiful

How can two weeks go by so quickly? I wish the speed of my days might just slow, just slip into a pace I can manage. But no. I realized as last week shuddered and sputtered to its end, I failed to … Continue reading

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The Reasons We Teach

My classroom is ready. I’m not. The laundry list swirls. I didn’t organize my files as planned. My summer reading list is still the list I started with. Those closet shelves never got installed. The fence wasn’t built. My summer … Continue reading

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The Clouds of Good Friday

My Grandma. The one who pinched my nose between the bones of her fingers, smiling with eyes lit and gleaming. The one who called me Shuga’. The one whose tender love was often confused with weakness. She carried Jesus in … Continue reading

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The Rush and Slow of Being Busy

It feels as if the time since our last conversation has stretched too long, friends. Busyness sucks the air from my soul. I know you understand. This rushing drags our weary bodies across the sand and throws us into pounding waves. … Continue reading

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When You Need a Cure For Withering

We drove to the ballet studio, chatting away. In a moment my wedding dress filled our girl talk. Your little girl wedding dreams glowing on your face. As you stepped out of the car, and I watched you walk away, … Continue reading

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