Category Archives: Struggles

For the Teacher at Summer’s End

I’m sitting at my desk. Music quietly plays in the background and a steady, soft rain falls outside my windows. My classroom is as ready as it can be. I’m not. In just a few hours, I will be gulping … Continue reading

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Because It’s Not About Choosing Sides

For over a week I’ve been silent. Attempting to put a broken heart into thoughts and thoughts into words and words into something that makes sense. Knowing I have something to say about our nation’s fractions and fissures but not … Continue reading

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What My Kids Need When the World Turns Dark

Last night Caleb had a nightmare. Two robbers with guns came in through his window and stole him. He’s six. My heart shudders because–what a horrific dream. I can’t pretend to think the dream wasn’t somehow related to the bits … Continue reading

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When You Wonder if You Did Enough

My classroom is quiet. Today was the last day of the school year, and I’m sorting through papers and materials—attempting to save only what is necessary. But I hold on tight because what if. What if I need it next year? Or … Continue reading

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Dear Momma Fighting Depression,

I know. I know what it’s like when the bravest moment of the day is when you crawl out of bed. I know what it is to stand in the shower longer than you should—willing yourself to face the day. And … Continue reading

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When Did We Stop Twirling?

The other night, music softly playing in the background, I watched you dance. I peeked around the corner so you couldn’t see me because I knew if did, you’d stop. I was right. When you were just a little bug-of-a-girl, … Continue reading

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When God Feels Far Away

After the birth of each of my children, my husband and I experienced a time of disconnect. There were a thousand reasons why, beginning with ten sweet fingers and ten delicious toes. Don’t get me wrong, it was a season of … Continue reading

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From Paris to Syria With More Questions Than Answers

Monday morning she walked through my classroom door. I had anticipated her arrival. My student from France. I knew her hurt would be the same I’d felt for days and weeks and still from 9/11. Pain without words. Her eyes … Continue reading

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When You Feel the Need to Impress

My hand-eye coordination is about the worst thing you can witness minus the acting abilities of Keanu Reeves in Much Ado About Nothing. Sorry. But Shakespeare and Keanu? Just no. But seriously. I have zero coordination. The fact I played … Continue reading

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Learning to Cast

Anxiety. Worry. Stress. I know these words. I pack them everywhere I go. Sometimes I take them out, shine them up for all to see. Anxiety and I are close—tight, bonded. Friends even? She wakes up with me and speaks … Continue reading

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